The more I try to write the more I have been seeing how hard it is, and this feels a little surprising, because I am only trying to write things that I have already developed in my head, so I thought that writing it down would be more of a mechanical and bureaucratic process, not a cognitive one, much less a very demanding cognitive process, and one that I sometimes can't even finish.
The most noticeable thing is, after I finish a paragraph and I read it, how bad I think it is compared to what I really wanted to say. In my head everything is clear, sound and beautiful, I really feel good when listening to myself talking about the subject I want to write, I feel like I would be a really good teacher, a really good speaker, I can even feel proud of myself on how smart I am, but when I try to write down exactly what goes through my head while I am developing my thoughts it seems bad, it doesn't seem like something from a good teacher or speaker at all. This is really strange, what is going on in the "thoughts -> words" process? I don't know whether this is because there are many gaps in my thoughts that I only perceive when trying to write or if this is more a writing issue like organizing the text, using the right words, etc. Or is it something else.
Anyway, I think this is just like learning a new skill, like riding a bike, it takes time, it seems hard in the beginning, but the more you practice the easier it gets, and that is one of the reasons I started this blog, to practice writing.